everytime i feel like i’m over and done with this bullshit family drama, someone brings it up, forcing me to conversate about it, then i’m back to where i was at a month or so ago… it’s not their fault, i’m not mad at the person bringing it up, its just taking longer than i thought to completely get over this… i know its a process, and i’m dealing with this the best i can… now with summer vacation, its gonna be hard to find things to do until i find a job… i got through the last half of the semester and i’m proud of myself for doing so, but i just gotta get through this shit… peace… happy memorial day to all, and in the words of Dam Funk, “don’t go swag, stay cool y’all”
“British sculptor Antony Gormley is well-known for his life-size sculptures that creatively mimic the human body, but the figurative clay mounds from his series titled Field, though not as accurate in depicting mankind’s form, holds deeper value for the artist. Gormley says of this project, “I wanted to work with people and to make a work about our collective future and our responsibility for it. I wanted the art to look back at us, its makers (and later viewers), as if we were responsible - responsible for the world that it [FIELD] and we were in.”
This passion project that has spanned across almost 15 years on five separate occasions in different parts of the world displays an army of 200,000 clay figures that completely occupy the space they are exhibited in. Gormley works with the native people of the installation’s exhibiting space to mold the 125 tons of clay. The artist animatedly describes the figures as being ‘energised by fire, sensitised by touch and made conscious by being given eyes.’”
Visit My Modern Metropolis to view more photos of Antony Gormley’s artwork!
the reason why i’ve stayed away from church for many years: fakeness, hypocrisy, false doctrine, false prophecy…
the reason why i’ve come to be bitter towards Christianity: seeing more and more people talk a good one but don’t act on it, namely family members whom i thought were good Christians, with good intentions, but are really evil, with demons inside of them that they cannot seem to conquer, they attempted to backstab my family and myself by trying to turn the rest of the family against us. they try and say they ain’t perfect when deep down they know they are. how can you be perfect?? nobody is perfect. they vow to live their lives in the image of God, when in reality they let these demons control their insecurities, and let these demons put so much shit into their heads that they lose touch with reality. WWJD?? he sure as hell would’nt have done what they did haha. How do you know if you’re saved?? You don’t know, they swear up and down that they’re going to heaven… what is heaven? what is hell? nobody alive on earth knows a goddamn thing about it… what if this whole Christianity shit is all a big joke? what if all religions are a big joke? i know theres something higher than us, something that i call God. My spirituality is still here, that will never leave, but this christianity thing?? i’m not very sure about it at all anymore… i’ve always looked at it as a social institution, for people to gather not only to “worship”, but dress to impress, and boast and brag about all the “good shit” you’ve done all week… I’m very saddenned by this drama going on involving my family, especially when we’ve never ever intended on hurting anyone in the family… it’s affecting me the most because i respected and trusted them so much, i always talked highly of them, and i figured they would be doing the same for me… when i think in reality it was the total opposite.. when i look back, i realize that they kept me at a distance, we should’ve been much closer than we were… oh well, i’m still getting through this bullshit from an emotional aspect… i’m through with the anger stage, i know its gonna take a while, a long while for me to fully get over this… will i ever find it in my heart to forgive them? hopefully i can someday, but i can’t ever forget it… and this is something that hit so deep, that it will change the way i look at them forever… respect is gone, trust is gone… as of right now, they are dead to me, but thats just how i feel at the moment… i know who my family is, and got a good idea of who i can trust… i know who i got, and they know who they are, and i love them to death cuz thats real family… i can’t forget my friends, my true homies, y’all know wassup, RENISANZ CREW 4 LIFE… we didnt get this shit tatted on us for nothing que no? i’m done with this, gotta get back to studying… Peace
Banned For Tv (1998) - Attempted Suicide
He came to the antenna with the intention of committing suicide, but the fall was accidental.
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Okay boys and girls, it’s VENTING TIME!!!! I love when some family members just cannot take my honest FaceBook comments and statuses, especially yesterdays Easter Post… I referred to our relatives that had “disowned” us a while ago, for whatever reason… They haven’t been around for a while, and sometimes around the holidays i can get a little emotional about the issue, and yesterday happened to be one of those days… My post read, “Happy Easter to my friends and family… especially to the relatives that hate us…”, now, it was done with a smidgen of humor, but mostly because I felt hurt because our whole family wasn’t going to be together for the Easter Holiday… Then i got a call from another uncle of mine who wasn’t going to be there that day thinking i was referring to his family, which i was totally not… Well, turns out that my uncle that gave me a call is actually taking a “break” from the family for a while as well, for reasons he did not want to disclose, and which i respect because they are going through some things… so i did the “adult” thing and i deleted the post from my profile, everything was clarified with my uncle and we all got on with the rest of our day, which was a lovely day like always on holidays with my family… Soooo, just when i thought things were all good, i get a text from my mom informing me that if i don’t have anything nice to say about familly then i shouldn’t say it all, especially on facebook, i have to be the adult about it… so just off of initial reaction i called my uncle that i spoke to yesterday and asked him if he mentioned the post to my mom, which i was sorely mistaken, but he did mention in his calm cool demeanor that my post might’ve been seen by other relatives (ex. families of my grandmothers siblings) and might’ve gotten them thinking and wondering what was going on with us… personally, i thought the news would’ve gotten out by now because its so obvious who’s been missing from the thousands of photos being taken at the many family get togethers that we’ve been having… but obviously our family has lot’s of PRIDE, and think we have to put up this BULLSHIT IMAGE of our family as being “Perfect”… so yeah theres some folks in the family that aren’t happy with me right now for being my honest self, but do i give a fuckin shit?? FUCK NO, why should i sugarcoat the state of our family when theres obvious drama going on, why should i join the competition to keep this family’s reputation to be “PERFECT” when it is far from it, I will NEVER change myself for ANYONE, i don’t give a fuck who you are, I’M ME, AND THATS ALL I’M GONNA BE, you take me as i am or kick rocks man seriously… Or better yet, maybe it’s me that needs to leave the family and their “Perfect” image of themselves so I won’t be here to unknowingly diminish their “Perfect” image… I Love My Family to death, theres nothing more important to me than family these days because sometimes i feel that it’s all i got, but they can’t keep posing themselves off as being perfect, because it’s not right, WHO GIVES A FUCK WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT US???? I sure don’t, we make mistakes, we fail at certain things we aspire to do, I’m the BIGGEST EXAMPLE in the family, but I sense the embarrassment when it comes to me because i used to be a druggie, gangster, straight up loser in their eyes… sometimes i feel that some think i dont deserve the success that i am acheiving right now, that i should still be in the gutter, because the “right” way to them is never turning the “wrong” way in the first place… well, i’ll tell you what, you gotta fall to truly succeed, you have to struggle to learn and experience TRUE life, before TRUE success without vain comes into action, my cousin/roommate understands the struggle, he’s struggling professionally and healthwise, to me thats harder than what i went through, if i was feeling like shit, i wouldn’t do shit, but he keeps on pushin’, like no other, he’s doin his thang thang, and i respect that so much and i wish the absolute best for him because he deserves it… i think i’m winding down with all this tension now, starting to feel better, i don’t rant because i want people to see this shit, it’s just stuff i need to get off my chest and sometimes i’m too fired up to express it with my own words so i have to type it out… and with that said, i need to focus my energy on my studies now, I Love You All, have a great evening…
a recap of last night at the Crosby… Minor Threat = Automatic mosh pit = massive trigger
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